There are a lot of things I miss about living in Minnesota. The freedom to get in my car and drive without any other cars around is one of those things.
I used to drive aimlessly almost every night in high school and there was something so unbelievably therapeutic about it. It made me listen to and experience music in a different way… in a way that was more attentive. A way that made the environment around me…. change.
I haven’t been able to find a replacement for that. Thankful to be here and enjoy these fields and open spaces.
Truly soothes my soul.
I love (am obsessed with) your instagram photos and I also enjoy photography. My question is, as a photographer, do you ever feel like you're not living in the moment because you're always searching for your next shot? Like you're capturing the beauty of a place to share later, rather than enjoying it in that moment in time? I ask because I struggle with this question, not because I am making assumptions about you! Would love your advice.
Oh thanks so much, I appreciate it. Yeah, I struggle with this all the time. Sometimes I just absolutely don’t allow myself to take my phone/camera out. Or take a limited number and put it away.
I hate when I think back on amazing moments or events in my life and I remember myself having a camera in front of my face most of the time. I can’t even begin to tell you how much that bums me out and makes me feel this disconnect from the people I was with. Like I was being selfish. It’s just super hard to have that yearning to constantly capture a moment/create art and not act on it.
What I’ve learned (and the only advice I can offer) is that taking photos, like most things, should be done in moderation so as not to miss out on what is actually in front of you. So as not to miss out on… life. Even if you miss a great shot, you’ll be experiencing a great moment.
Getting over, I may not be able to help with. Wallow a bit and experience the awful that is a breakup? That I can help with. Sad songs are sort of my niche, so I am going to create a list much longer than you probably expected. In no particular order:
For Emma, Forever Ago - Bon Iver A given. This album still hurts so good. Like a good portion of humans, I had this album constantly playing for a long period of time. It felt like it was written for me… a lot of people feel that way. Want to know why? Because it’s an amazing album. It’s gorgeous and relatable and deeply moving. Thanks Justin. We all owe you one.
My Maudlin Career - Camera Obscura
”Who was it that said that love conquers all? Oh, he was a fool cause it doesn’t at all”
Rumours - Fleetwood Mac Literally a breakup album. “Never Going Back Again” slays me. Knowing what the band was going through at that time and how hard it was to record the album in the same room adds a lot to it. It’s truly legendary.
The Freewheelin’ - Bob Dylan "Girl From the North Country", "Don’t Think Twice, it’s Alright", and "Corinna, Corinna" on the same album? This damn album. Ripped my heart out in the most necessary way. "I gave her my heart but she wanted my soul. But don’t think twice, it’s all right.”
Figure 8 - Elliott Smith Caution with this one. It will sting. You might want to play “Everything Reminds me of Her” 3 or 4 or 70 times.
Yankee Hotel Foxtrot - Wilco One of the best albums of all time, people. Jeff was trying to break our hearts. And he succeeded. "A lot of things have changed since we said goodbye, the reasons for you to love me but I gave you none.” UGH.
Deja Entendu - Brand new If any of you have read my blog before, you know how dearly important this album is to me. Turn on “The Boy Who Blocked his Own Shot” and cry for hours. "And if it makes you less sad, I’ll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It’s cold as a tomb, and it’s dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed." Still kills me.
Caught in the Trees - Damien Jurado From “Sheets” to “Everything Trying”, this album is so beautifully painful. And I would come back and admit that it wasn’t your fault. But I’m tired and unwilling to be the only one was wrong. I would sail back to you.”
Heartbreaker - Ryan Adams Also a bit of a given. I think I’ve listened to this album after every breakup in my life. Also probably once a week on top of that. “Come Pick me Up” may very well be the quintessential breakup song.
Set Yourself on Fire - Stars This album was college for me. Everything about it is perfect. It is heavily peppered with absolutely heartbreaking lines and got me through quite a bit around the time of Ignoble. From the powerful opening track that brilliantly covers both sides of a breakup to One More Night about wanting one more night with someone you know shouldn’t be with anymore. All too relatable. There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave. You were what I wanted. I gave what I gave. I’m not sorry I met you. I’m not sorry it’s over. I’m not sorry there’s nothing to say. I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save. Holy wow.
Let it Die - Feist How is an album this good? I can’t tell you how many times this line has gone through my head: It was hard to tell just how I felt. To not recognize myself. I started fade away. And after all, it won’t take long to fall in love. Now I know what I don’t want. I learned that with you.
Transatlanticism - Death Cab for Cutie You had to expect this one too. There are few things better than turning this album up and driving around the countryside at night when you’re bummed. I will not apologize for including this in the list. So one last touch and then we’ll go. And we’ll pretend that it meant something so much more. But it was vile. And it was cheap. And you are beautiful, but you don’t mean a thing to me.
Trouble will Find Me - The National Breakup or not, this album is perfect and hurts in the best way. I remember when I heard the opening track, “I Should Live in Salt”, for the first time. It just crushed me. I should live in salt for leaving you behind is a lyric that will always mean a lot to me. I don’t think I’ll ever forget it. Also: "I’m not holding out for you. I’m still watching for the signs. If I tried you’d probably be hard to find” (brb crying)